Waiting...

Okay, tonight i am writing this blog post not to make people feel sorry for me, but to get my emotions out. 
Waiting is one of the hardest things to do. As a girl we wait to grow up, we wait for prince charming to come around. Then we wait to have kids. Well i am still waiting to grow up a little bit. I have found my prince charming. But the hardest wait for me is to wait to have kids. 
My facebook is filled with pregnancy announcements, and im sitting here like...i'm going to school. I am so happy for everyone who is able to start their family while i am not. But it is so hard to me not to be upset. I have gotten to the point that i think my body is giving me signs of pregnancy because its all i think about. I walk down the baby isle and find myself wishing that we could start our family. I have friends who struggle with infertility and i think. Now they are the ones who should be upset. They are trying and are unable to get pregnant and we aren't even trying. But the longing to be pregnant. Eric is great, he is my rock and tries to keep me from being to upset over it, but i know he wants one too. 
Every time i feel sick, or like i have the symptoms of pregnancy i take a test. (thank you dollar store) And each time it is negative a little piece of my heart breaks. 
This last time was the hardest. I decided to wait until Eric wasn't home to take it. (sometimes i feel bad because he is so logical. He knows i am not pregnant because i am on BC. But i still take the test) Its the first one i've taken since we've moved to Idaho. 
I was alone in the apartment and had no one. I couldn't just go to my sisters house and have her take care of me. Eric was with the scouts and had no car to come home. I was in contact with him and he knew of my struggle but it didn't make it any easier. As i looked at myself in the mirror and realized that i was not pregnant i could't help but have tears stream down my face! 
Things in our life are good. We are both in school. I just started a job. Eric is doing great with school, we are learning more and more about each other everyday. Yet I still have this void in my life. The longing to have a baby. 
Like i said i don't want your pitty. I dont want you to feel bad for me. But if i don't say anything about you being pregnant, its not personal. Its that i'm struggling. 

A pictures worth 1000 words..

So its been a very long time since my last blog post...all i can say is life has been so busy. Lets see where to start.

I guess our major news is we have officially moved. Last year i made a blog post about moving in August. Then everything fell apart and we were unable to make the move. This year everything came together and we were able to find a place to live, Eric was able to sign up for classes, and i have a few leads on jobs. I was very sad to leave my job as SLOC where i had made many friends and had great co-workers. I had found a job that i didn't hate, and actually looked forward to going to. I am trying to stay in the medical field as we make our transition up here. My other big news is that i was able to start school. I started about 2 weeks ago and i am so excited to be continuing my education. I received a tuition wavier and FASFA so it wasn't an added expense for me and Eric. It will be nice to be doing homework as Eric is doing homework. 

We spent the last couple of month preparing for the move as well as our trip to Disney World. We went with Eric's foster Family. It was a group of 10 people. We had a great time. I always feel like a little kid when going to Disney. The family was focused on trying to do as much as possible. I wanted to look in shops...and lets me honest meet the characters. I don't think i will every be to old for Disney. Eric said he prefers 6 flags because of the intense ride. We had a great time with the family, and it was a great vacation right before life changed for us. Eric and I were unable to join the family at universal studios, but we rented a car and drove out to Cocoa beach. (i later found out that is the beach for I dream of Jennie, now i wish i would have gotten something from there! other than sand) It was so nice to be in the water without a wet suit this time, it was so warm! Eric decided it would be a good time to wash my hair with sand and use the sand as sunscreen (it didn't work) and he had to take me further out to wash the sand out of my hair. I love thinking back on that day and how much in love i am with Eric.

We were able to rent a jet ski's twice this summer. The first time was very spare of the moment and we went to Utah lake with Grace, Marie, Chris, and Ethan. We also had a tube, it was so much fun. Our jet ski had a few problems...like dying! But it made for fun, Grace Eric, and myself tipped twice! i had a nasty bruise on my leg, and Utah lake now owns Graces' sunglasses. But we had a great time! The other time we rented from someone else and Eric and i took 2 jet ski's up to Bear Lake where we camped with the family! We had a lot of fun and i even got to drive! i enjoyed them but was super sore the next couple of days! 

We both got to run the Dirty Dash, It was my first time (not Eric's) we had some friends that couldn't use their tickets so they gave them to us (thanks again!) it was a fun experience but i'm not sure i will do it again! I never backed down from an obstacle. and with Eric's help we were able to do all of them! I was also able to Run *walk* the Hit and Run 5K (again we had a friend unable to do it ...THANKS AGAIN) It was a group of 3 women. We enjoyed our time and Eric was there as our professional photographer.  We went camping with Morgan, Derrick, Tyce, and Natasha. It was so cute to see Tyce in his element. He was always covered in DIRT! His favorite activity was collecting rock to throw into the river. Then seeing him sit in his chair and roast starburts was so cute! I was grateful Morgan let us join her camping! 

I am constantly grateful for Eric's constant support in my crazy ideas! The latest of which has turned into a blessing in disguise. When discussing moving up to Idaho i told Eric i wanted to find a job that would pay enough so that he didn't have to work and school would be his priority. But the more i searched the more i couldn't find a high enough job. Well i had a super close family friend who is in need of a place to stay for a few months. So instead of our second room being an office it will be a bedroom for our friend. He will help pay rent and have responsibilities to help out. This has been a major blessing because now Eric won't have to work and can really focus on school. I am so excited for him to start. (as i am writing this he is currently in salt lake with my parents working until school starts, so of course i'm excited for it to start because my husband will be with me again) 

Well i think that about sums up our summer life. Here are just a few pictures to go with the post. Now that we are here in Idaho i am hoping to have time to write more so we can keep everyone up to date with our lives. 

Minnie and Mickey

Cocoa Beach :)

Camping!

Dirty Dash

Hit and Run 

Moving 

JET SKI! *see i'm driving!*

Magic Kingdom

January

This year started off great! We enjoyed time with family and friends. To bring in the new year we played games at my sister Morgan's house. Now when i wasn't working in December, i spent just about every day there. To be honest now that i'm working i miss having that relationship with my sister and nephew. Not that we have a different relationship but we don't get to see each other any more. So it was great to spend the night playing games. 

I ended my job working at the temp agency on the 3rd, but started my job at salt lake orthopedic clinic on the 6th. Its so nice to be back in face to face customer service. I enjoy my job! I am learning a lot about insurances. It is such a positive work environment and everyone it really helpful. My second week there i was left alone when my co-worker went on his lunch break. My phone was ringing and i had a line but i just took my time and made sure that each patient left happy. Afterwards, i had one of our chart finders come up to me and told me that i do really well, he said " i know your new so i wanted to let you know that i think your doing a great job and i made sure your supervisor knew that as well" its just so nice! I still feel like i depend on a lot of people, but they let me know they don't mind. they would rather have it done right then have to explain to a patient why they can't see them. I work with two men, this is a new experience for me. But it is so nice, i am learning how to let things roll off :) 

We took a trip down to Provo to have an awesome group date with family. We met up with Katelyn, Andy, Kayla and McKay, and went to nickle city. I love nickle city, Eric and i have done multiple dates there. It was such a blast! and it was great to spend time with family! I'm looking forward to spending more time together. 

We were able to be approved for a credit card through south west! Now normally i am not for getting credit cards, but with this credit card we will be able to fly to Florida in August and spend time with our family in Disney World! I am so excited! 

Eric took me out to Outback stake house this month. He work gave him a gift card. He did his research and we were ready to order when we got there. Eric ordered me the Filet Minon (i'm pretty sure thats not spelled right but you get what it was) BEST STEAK I HAVE EVER HAD! it was so tasty! Eric ordered the prime rib, i got to have a bite and that was delicious as well! I tried the blooming onion. It was not my favorite, but it was the worst thing I've had. 

We also had a date night to go and see Frozen! We went to wingers first, it was so good, then went to Frozen! that is a movie worth seeing again and again. I told Eric we will be buying it as soon as it comes out. Before i saw the movie i found myself annoyed when the songs would play on Disney Pandora, now i find myself skipping songs hoping to find a song from Frozen. I'm thinking i might just need the sound track. 

I started this year out wanting to save money, i realized we were throwing so much money towards eating out, and that was not good. I have been trying to keep the apartment cleaner as well. I am slowly going through each room deep cleaning it. I started in the kitchen, and this week it has been my goal to keep it clean. I am finding that by doing dishes each night it makes me a happier person. I don't mind coming home because when i walk in my table is covered in trash, and my sink isn't full of dishes. I don't mind cooking as much because i know i'm not just adding dishes to the pile. So i guess one room down 2 to go. But i feel like once we get into the habit of making sure things are clean before we go to bed. We will have a happier and healthier marriage. I have such a great support behind me with these changes. Eric is so great at keeping me motivated and to keep going. I have also decided to start working out. I feel like if i wake up when Eric leaves for work, and work out then i will have so much more energy to my day. I'm not sure yet if i have more energy but i get more done during my day. I now have time in the morning to do a few chores. I'm finding if you do a little a day, then its not as bad :)

We have our next date night planned for tomorrow. We are headed to the temple to do some of Eric's family names. Including his grandpa. I am so excited to be doing the work for people that i am related too! I can't wait to meet them! We are going to go to the Salt Lake Temple. We love the fact that its the temple for our ward, and its also our temple. I am excited to go back to the place where our marriage began. 

We have decided to have a project together. I told Eric i was sick of coming home and him reading his book and me watching TV then going to bed. I felt like we needed to do more with each other. So the next night we went out and bought a couple of puzzles. The first was 500 pieces. I thought it was going to be pretty easy. But a week later...we are still working on it. We don't work on it every night but its fun to be across the table. Eric is really good at creating a hole for one piece, and saying "don't look for it" well its not like i'm searching for that piece but i'm usually the one who finds it. I just love being in his company doing something that doesn't involve technology.

We had a game night with Morgan and Derrick this month, and it was super fun. Eric learned how to sign "bacon popcorn, very salty" i love the fact he is starting to learn. Its hard for me to teach him because he gets super silly. Bu we are going to do more game nights so that he can start to learn. Its really fun to watch Eric and Derrick's relationship grow more as Eric learns signs. 

As for my nephews i love them! Lincoln just turned 1! i can't believe its already a year. He is getting a personality and attitude of his own. Walking around and just loving life. I walked in to help kylie prepare for his birthday party and as soon as i walked into the bathroom (he was getting a bath) he just got a big grin on his face. he finished bathing, we wrapped him in a towel and i held him and he gave me a hug that just melted my heart! being an aunt is so rewarding. Tyce is growing like crazy! We were doing flips off of me. after every flip he would say OW! so i would pick him back up and proceed to kiss each arm at least twice. then he would throw his arms around my neck and give me a hug. I can't believe how fast my babies are growing up! i love being and aunt and love spoiling my boys!

Well i think that about wraps up January for us. I hope your January, and start to the new year was as great as ours! I wish i could post pictures, but my computer is in the shop with lots of viruses. so i'm using Eric's. When i get my computer back i'll be sure to post pictures of all our adventures. 

Love,

Natalie and Eric Daley

When life gives you lemons...

You know life is full of ups and downs. Disappointments, and achievements, I've had the opportunity to learn this the last 2 days. (no really the last 2 days) before the holidays I had noticed that my school FASFA wasn't appearing. Eric and I had said my going back to school depended on the amount of FASFA that we got. Yesterday I went into SLCC to find out what was going on and we made to much money this last year to qualify for grants, so my only option was a loan. I don't want to get student loans. So... I have dropped out of school. At first I was a little disappointed, it just doesn't seem fair, I was actually excited to go back. But after coming to terms with it, I've decided that its just not my time to go back to school yet. Yes its a disappointment, but I was nervous about going back to school full time and a full time job.
However on the exciting news, I had a job interview this morning, now I have loved working at the temp agency but at the same time it comes with the fear of what happens when Jan 5th hits. The lady's I work with kept mentioning how they wanted to keep me, but they didn't know if they could do it. So they set up an interview for me with Salt Lake Orthopedic Center, I will be scheduling appointments, helping with co-pays, insurance, and just a bunch of different stuff. I am grateful for the opportunity. I was the first to interview for the position, and after interviewing me, they called the temp agency and said "cancel the others, we want her." It made me feel really good. I start Monday, and its a temp to hire position. Most exciting part? I GET TO WEAR SCRUBS! After 90 days they will provide me with what scrubs to wear. I am super excited!

So yes, life is full of disappointments, but if you look for it there is a positive in every situation.

Happy Friday!