we are expecting!

I remember the day I found out we were expecting I felt like my heart was going to explode. 

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We had been trying for so long since the miscarriage and I had all but given up. I has taking my temperature every morning, doing blood draws, and doctor visits. I had lost all hope, so I told Eric we were done, I wasn't going to go back on the pill, but I wasn't going to track anymore. I couldn't continue to get my hopes up every month. People had told me "when you stop trying that is when it will happen" but it wasn't what I wanted to hear. Well, this is me saying "when you stop trying that is when it will happen" 

April 9th 2016, I had spend most of the day in bed, we were going to be working in the temple that afternoon so I decided to get up and get ready. While getting ready I saw the box of pregnancy tests, and realized it was KINDA that time. I knew I would be taking it a day early plus I was taking it in the afternoon, so my expectations were low. When I saw "PREGNANT" on the test I fell to my knees and cried, tears of happiness tears of anxiety, tears of joy! I couldn't believe that after a year of trying, we were finally pregnant. 

The first person I told was my sister Morgan, I still had half an hour before Eric got home from work and I wanted to tell someone, at this point I was crying still and had her worried, you could hear my nephew in the background say "I am so excited!" and Morgan told him Aunt Natalie had a baby in her tummy.

 Eric got home and I had a present waiting for him, it was the willow tree figuring names "new dad" He didn't understand the significance at first, and as I choked out the words "i'm pregnant" you saw the expression change on his face, to love, admiration, and excitement. Just thinking about it has put me in tears again. We called and told my parents and his mom on our way to the temple, and all I could think was "its finally happened"

7 week Ultrasound

As the weeks progressed I was excited, but nervous. I didn't want to get my hopes up, I was nervous and stressed that I would loose this baby. I knew there was nothing I could do if that was the plan but it didn't change the fact that I didn't want this baby to leave me. We went to our first ultrasound, originally because of his work schedule Eric wasn't going to be able to join me, but a last minute change made it so we could both be there. Our little 7 week old baby was growing, and had a strong heartbeat, but i didn't relax until i was past 10 weeks.


 I was very nervous to go into the doctors appointment at 11 weeks, Eric was gone, and what if there wasn't a heartbeat. I had my friend Ream go with me, and as the doctor searched for the heartbeat she told me that I had a little wiggle worm, finding that heartbeat and hearing it for the first time was magic! I knew I loved this little one, but nothing I can say will express how much I loved hearing that heartbeat.

 Pregnancy hasn't been the easiest thing, but I know what its like to have lost it, so I have tried to love every moment of it! I had some morning sickness, but wasn't throwing up. I also was not a cry baby, until recently.

 

Each week we've taken a "bumpie" so we can watch this little baby grow. With special circumstances I've been able to feel the baby kick. (it doesn't like when the cats sit on its head) and in just a few short days we will know if we have a baby boy or girl joining our family.

We thank the Lord everyday for this little Miracle growing inside of me. Its crazy how much love you can have for someone you've never met before. December will be the best month of the year for us and honestly...we can't wait!

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Photo Credit: http://racheliviephotography.com/